~ I Need A Psychiatry!!! Seriouss!!! ~

:: oh my GOD. please help me ::

i heard this song yesterday and suddenly i say sometimes i feel that i can't live without him (this is sooo trueee) :

How do I

Get through one night without you

If I had to live without you

What kind of life would that be?

Oh I need you in my arms

Need you to hold

Your my world my heart my soul

If you ever leave

Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I

How do I

O how do I live?.

Without you

There'd be no sun in my sky

There would be no love in my life

There would be no world left for me

And I

Baby I don't know what I would do

I would be lost if I lost you

If you ever leave

Baby you would take away everything real in My life

And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever ever survive?

How do I

How do I

O how do I live?...

Please tell me baby..

How do I go on?

If you ever leave

Well baby you would take away everything

Need you with me

Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I

How do I

O how do I live

How do I live without you

How do I live without you baby.......

How do I live....

 
and this morning while i woke up i think sometimes i feel i'm already torn :

I thought I saw a man brought to life

He was warm

He came around and he was dignified

He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored

You don't seem to know

Or seem to care what your heart is for

Well I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie

My conversation has run dry

That's what's going on

Nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed

Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed

Into something real

I'm wide awake

And I can see

The perfect sky is torn

You're a little late

I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right

I should have seen just what was there

And not some holy light

But you crawled beneath my veins

And now I don't care

I have no luck

I don't miss it all that much

There's just so many things

That I can't touch I'm torn

I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed

Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed

Into something real

I'm wide awake

And I can see

The perfect sky is torn

You're a little late

I'm already torn

Torn

hoooooooooo hoohooooooo oooooooo

There's nothing where he used to lie

My inspiration has run dry

That's what's going on

Nothing's right I'm torn

I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed

Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed

Into something real

I'm wide awake

And I can see

The perfect sky is torn

I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I'm ashamed

Bound and broken on the floor

You're a little late

I'm already torn

Torn

(Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)

Hoh

 

after all the 'drama' in my life (including family, friends, career, surrounding and lurve life) i think i really need a break!!!. i really need A Psychiatry to bring back my joy in my life. i'm always think positive and be a grateful person, appreciate watever GOD give me, and HE gave me. i think i have a great life but sometimes i feel i'm bluffing myself bcoz the reality i'm not.

 

oh ya!! i think my mood is swinging bcoz i'm in PMS. when i'm 'datang bulan' i'm always feel this kind of feeling : lonely (hey, yesterday i saw i car with a sticker 'mr. lonely' ... so funnyyy ... huk huk) useless, being ignored by HIM. i'm always think HE doesn't love me anymore.

 

so, any Psychiatry out there, am i normal or just craving an attention or bcoz kak ida, kak eren & ita (my colleague near my cubicle was not here, so i don't have a friends to talk - kaitan???) or am i already retarded???

 

and now i think this entry is an emotional entry. yessss!! i'm always EMO ok.